2 Piece Fish Combo with 9 Shrimp Please

I finally stopped drinking everyday Nov. 3rd and I have been sober from all recreational uses. I am back to my “normal” diet I was on since January 2026. Instead of eating junk food, fast food, sweets everyday for two months.

If continued on that journey of destroying my body, I’d be more financial worry. So, eating right is important to me. You either you pay the Farmer (Whole Foods) NOW or pay the Pharmacy (Drugs/Pills/Doctors)later as friend once posted on his social media. IDK if he invented the quote or not, but I like it.

My body has been sweating profusely whenever I move because my body is trying to flush everything out. It’s only been two weeks and I still feel slightly sluggish, so I probably shouldn’t expect to be where I was prior to July anytime soon.

My birthday is this week and I’m too broke to celebrate. Usually, I take myself or a friend out to eat. Last year me and one of the cast of “Eight Faces Shoved in Cake with Toothpicks” had Lobster Rolls in Culver City. Maybe I’ll go somewhere less fancy like Long John Silver’s. Seafood or Vietnamese is my goto on my birthday.

I’ve been avoiding people and social media. It’s very time consuming and distracting from my editing and my new music.

I have a new album that’s like my first CD “The Prequel”. It’s all sampled, underground hip-hop type beats. I’ve been working on new Goth-House songs too, but have not had the money to get in the studio to record. But I have 18 songs of rapping I did in 2023/2024? alone sitting in a alley with a laptop and a Microphone. Unhoused people thought I was just one of them. I was really desperate to record and tired of waiting and as usual scared I’ll die before I’ll complete them (As if I’m some important musician a bunch of people are dying to hear from lol).

I need to release that album before I start recording the How Horror Movies Should Sound/Goth-House stuff.

I wanted to put it on CD, but those plans were made when I had a job. Now, I’m okay with just putting online for now. I have three titles I’m really indecisive about. That is the only thing keeping me from revealing the name. I dont’ want to say it’s called _____ then change my mind a week later.

RIP MOM

My mom taught me how to make homemade noodles from scratch. That was my favorite thing to eat while growing up.

2026 has been quite the year.

I lose my job of 5 years, get in my first fistfight in over a decade, and my mom dies.

I started a new job 4 weeks ago in downtown right down the street and it is more pay, but I’m not adjusting as well as they hoped.

Then with my moms deaths occurs three weeks into it, I took two days off, upon returning I made some mistakes and they said I could take more time off. So, I took three more days off.

During that period I made a mistake on my EDD, because I’m emotionally comprised my mind has been astray. I realized the mistake and called them within 24hours to rectify. I thought I was in the clear, so I continued as usual and certified waited for the next check.

The first day back from the 5 days for unpaid bereavement I get fired.

October’s last comes and I have not been paid so I call them and they said I am currently suspended for five weeks of pay because of my error.

I panic. I used the last of my money fixing my EDD mistake assuming. I’ll be paid the last week of October so it’ll be fine. Let’s just pay all these fees in one go.

I was wrong and so I had no money. I had to borrow from a friend to pay Novembers rent.

I talked to them again and they said there’s a possibility I will be inelgible for possibly three years. An interview on the phone about why I was fired will determine the outcome.

I’m kind of done with LA. So, if I my only means of a current income ends, I think I’m going to move. My sister inherited my mom’s 5 bedroom house and there’s only her and son living there. She invited me to return to live there. That’s what I’m leaning towards now.

As I reflect I’m scared to compare what’s good and what’s bad in my life. I may end up realizing there’s more bad. I’ve been kind of suicidal lately, so I don’t know if that is healthy. The be honest, it’d motivate me towards are darker path. There’s nothing positive to come out of a comparison sheet of my life or current life. All I know is what I see and right now I don’t see anything or anyone keeping me in LA anymore. It used to be my job. It used to be because I was getting booked all the time. It used to be because I had friends. None of that exists now.

What I do with my free time now I can do anywhere else with cheaper rent.

My reluctance comes from my experience moving to Philly. I didn’t stay long because I ran out of money and couldn’t get a job and my landlord was sexually-harrassing me via text so I didn’t feel safe in a shitty $250 studio in Kensington North Philadelphia.

I spent a lot of money getting there just to return. So, I’m scared of that repeating.

Anyways, my mom was a sad person. She spent the past 26 years alone basically.

In 1994 she bought the dream house she always wanted. In 1996 day after xmas, my dad died. Then in May 1997 I left for college and never returned. When she had her first heart atttack and we thought she was going to die that year, she just wanted to see her son one last time. She had only seen me 4 times since I left.

After my dad passing and myself leaving, she couldn’t afford that huge home alone. She sold it.

She was mentally unstable, no one talked about it. And I didn’t see it until I was away from it.

She deserved a better vehicle and life, she just wanted to take care of things. Foster Kids, animals. She was a mother.

There’s a Dead Body in My Bathroom

Sunday afternoon I walked out of my room and into the restroom directly on my left. As soon as I opened it I saw two white legs and bare vaginal area with a little blood on her inner top thigh and I said “Oh” (Because I wasn’t sure she was dead, so I was talking to her) The cops at the end of the hallway (I assume were there to prevent me from entering) said “Sir!” and immediately put everything together. She was dead. Later that day I asked my landlord what happened. They said she allegedly she slipped in the shower.

I am suspicious of this quick response, but I’ll hold my tongue until there’s more information to speak on. I experienced some events audibly that I speculated were related, but I may be absolutely wrong or they may be just giving me the response a tenant needs in order to not cause panic.

Three Unexpected Things That Happened to Me This Weekend

  1. Friday: After 5 years at the same place, I was not expecting a laid-off, but I felt relieved because having a job I liked kept me from leaving where I live and the state. Now I’m considering options like moving back where family are, or trying somewhere new or even my home country. Or maybe keep it simple and just move somewhere like Long Beach or Walnut, CA. I’ve been in Downtown LA for a decade.
  2. Saturday: I got attacked by some random guy while crossing the street. He was looking at me, and said “You got a problem with me?” and I stopped and said “What?” then we argued a bit and then he pretended he was going to hit me and I flinched and she smiled. Then he did it again and this time my wrestling instincts kicked in and I took him down to the ground. He was a husky guy who was a little taller than me. I’ve been in fist fights since kindergarten and lost most of the time. I knew if I let this this big guy hit me first and compromise my clarity and vision, I could potentially get hurt and rack up another hospital bill. And I had a lot of money on me. So, I wasn’t taken those chances. I rolled him on to his back, pinning him and locked him up so he’d wear himself out trying to get up and when he did I let him go and helped him back up. But because concrete is not as soft as wresting mats, I have open wounds and scratches on my joints like elbow areas, and knees.
  3. Sunday: My mom falls and breaks her foot and ankle

I Only Know His Apartment Number

Around July 10, 2026 A.M. I was at home when suddenly an argument from my neighbors at Apt 317 began. You could hear them clearly. The first thing I remember being said is by the young woman yelling “You did this on purpose! – You did this on purpose!” – the young male yelled back “You better not call the law, it’s my dog!” repeatedly.

Two weeks ago I heard a dog yelping in pain at night from that neighbors apt. I heard the couple argue again, but this time it was not as clear. I could not tell what was being said. After that day, the argument stopped. I have not heard them fighting in two weeks. However, the dog yelping in pain has increased. The duration it’s in pain, to the amount of times it happens in one day. I recorded a few of the nights it happened. The most disturbing recording was 1 minute non-stop of it in pain and it ended with it sounds like punches and strangulation of the animal. Almost every night that male neighbor is home, I hear the dog in pain.

Last night, July 29th was the most frequent times it was in pain. It started around 11PM Wednesday – a dog yelping. Then again at 2:08AM. Then lastly at 7:15AM. At which it ended with him saying out loud “God I need help”.

In between those three times I think I heard it yelping in pain and I woke up, but a neighbor (third party) recently started to play their tv as loud as possible when the dog is in pain. I speculate to drown out the sound because they are close to the culprit. However, their tv noise hides the dog’s pain, making you unable to capture evidence.

It’s happened so much now, that I am traumatized. When I am not even at home now, if i hear anything hi-pitched like a tire squealing or another dog, I immediately start to think an animal is being tortured.

Whoever ends up with this man as their father or spouse, has my pity.

5 Horror Movies I’d Love to Remake or Reboot or Add an Original Sequel to

  1. The Alien Franchise – I first saw “ALIEN” when I was 5 or 4. It was either the very first Horror Film or very second Horror film I ever saw.
  2. Death Ship – I saw Death Ship when I was 4 or 5, it was definitely before I was in kindergarten. So, I’d never went to any school yet. It was the same year or so I saw Alien. So, I can’t remember which one was the first or second.
  3. Shock Waves – My first taste in the Zombie genre. It may have been the third horror film I first saw. At the time George Romero Trilogies weren’t even under my radar. So, I didn’t even know they existed. I was at the mercy of what cable TV or Cinemax or HBO showed me. VHS wasn’t a thing in my household until I was 9 or 10. And I vividly remember my first trip to a VHS store and discovering Dawn of the Dead, Scanners, Basketcase, Street Trash, Toxic Avenger and more.
  4. The Werewolf Genre – I grew up with Lon Chaney werewolf images and had the universal action figures/dolls. I thought the film (from a child’s POV) was a bore, but I liked the creature design too much. It wasn’t until The Howling, I found a werewolf movie I liked a lot. In 2016 I started to write a basic plot for a werewolf film, but I realized if I’m going to do this, I want to do it right. Meaning Iwant my werewolf to look horrifying. And I don’t have the resources for that, so I’ve put that idea to the side until I”m rich and famous lol.
  5. The Hellraiser Franchise – You know these cenobites with supernatural powers could be seen as Supervillains. I’m not saying they should be a comic book type of feature, but they could have the kind of pacing with a hellish set piece adventure. I see a lot of potential in the damage and pain they could inflict on cities, or in hell, but the scales we green light are not even close to being something epic. To put it simple, there’s not enough body count for their incredible powers. The third one tried, but it seemed to lost it’s way direction-wise. I’d love to give it an arthouse approach and give it more mystery, suspense and an ensemble cast of characters to kill. This could be a series as well.